Megan Elizabeth was born 5/5/10 at 6:11 a.m.  She was 20.25″ long and weighted 6lbs 13oz.  She’s 6 weeks now and a joy.  Caitlin LOVES being a big sister.  Aubrey’s a big help and not quite sure I know what I’d do without her. I’m slowly adjusting to having 2 kids and being a mom to more than one.

Battling some mild case of the the baby blues.  Just the typical girl stuff, feeling fat, sleep deprivation.  But I know eventually it all evens out and gets better – and some days that’s what gets me through.  I’ve struggled most of my life with feelings of inadequacy, and its no different right now.  I have an awesome husband who reassures me daily and  helps keep me grounded.  He’s also an amazing dad – I knew that would be the case, but it melts my heart to see him with Megan.   She adores him already, and has had him wrapped around her finger from minute one.

I’m embarking on a weight loss journey.  I need to loose about 85-90lbs.  Not all baby weight.  In fact most of it isn’t baby weight.  It’s stress weight, depression weight, poor choices weight, lack of exercise weight.  3 years ago I started running to relieve stress and I lost 50lbs by doing that and eating less/healthier.  Since then I’ve fallen into a comfort pattern of convenience eating.  Combine that with a stressful job search and a love for eating out plus a struggle with some medical issues and boom the weight piled on.  So my biggest stuggle with the desire to loose weight is my motivation/drive to keep up with it.  I suck at diets and I suck at consistency.  But what’s the mantra?  1 day at a time?  1 pound at time?